Last week through our journey of the MKMMA journey we were instructed to read an obituary everyday from the newspaper. I have to say that this was an interesting task. The first part of the week I felt extremely sad and emotional reading about people who have just passed on. Some of the were old and some as young as 2 years old! I would find myself thinking of the love ones that I have lost in the pass and it was mixed emotions. I became observant to the fact that I was going through the 4 stages of grief that was covered during our last class.
Through the end of the week I felt a change of how I viewed the obituaries. I start to think and imagine how there life was and picture some of the things they may have done. For example if a certain person was in a War I would take my current knowledge of that particular war and play it out in my head like a movie. There no way of ever knowing, but I guess I want to discover if they had lived their life to their bliss or one of quiet desperation.
That made me really think how I wanted people to imagine me when I passed and if I could hit the grave with a HUGE SMILE looking the Guy In The Glass with complete satisfaction. Just turing 27 hopefully I will be blessed with longevity to carryout my bliss! Now that I have the tools and knowledge to conquer my thoughts to create any reality I so do choose I am eagerly excited for the FUTURE. I feel that I am in between stages 3 & 4 of the dying stage when it come to the old blueprint. I have accepted that there is no turning back but, need to master those feelings. I also think most of my classmates are at the tail end of the dying stage being able to stick through the course this long.
Goodbye Old Self